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23 Jan

Anyone who has known me for a great amount of time knows my heart for Kendrick Lamar. You know the Grammy-nominated rapping phenomena of a scholar from California that’s walking this very Earth at this very moment.

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Well, folks, the love has thickened. 


Recently (January 8th, 2014) Kendrick Lamar was interviewed by Billboard Magazine. He covered a lot of topics ranging from his Grammy snub to his thoughts in regards to the Michael Brown case to the highly anticipated drop of new album. However, out of the many topics he covered for the magazine, one quote stuck out to me.

“She’s doing her thing,” Lamar tells Billboard. “Let her. People have to go through trials and tribulations to get where they at. Do your thing, continue to rock it, because obviously God wants you here.”

 Now just reading that, you wouldn’t know that he was talking about Iggy Azalea, who many rappers have been giving mixed opinions about. Of course, Kendrick being Kendrick wouldn’t be caught dead saying anything rude to tear anybody down because that’s not what he’s about. He’s about truth and positivity and art.

Just to put it plainly.

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Now to the meat and potatoes (which sounds so friggin’ good right now). The second I read that quote, I went back and read it again and again. I smiled and I teared up a bit. Because even though he was talking about Iggy Azalea, it applied so much to my current situation. And boy did I need to read it that very second. In the moment, that quote hit me like the words of the great Shakespeare. (You know, if Shakespeare had actually written those darn good plays and wasn’t just a good businessman.)

Even so, that quote is my new favorite of the year thus far. I thought about getting it tattooed inside my upper arm for about an hour. (too long, possibly too painful)

It also reminded me of Psalms 42:5, which crazy enough was the scripture I woke up to in my devotional this morning. Even crazier, this is the first year I’ve read that scripture and didn’t break down because I felt so empty inside and the encouragement felt like water hitting my droughted soul. It was just nice to be reminded. I had never experienced that before and it was so refreshing. I finally feel as though I am finding who I am in God and loving the way He has created me.

Let’s also talk about the fact that Kendrick wasn’t even trying to be cathartic–and reestablish his reign on my favorite person of all time list–but HE TOTALLY DID! The guy is a legend, people.

And God’s timing scares me with its perfection.


–Joni Bing x

P.S. His new single ‘i’ is my current theme song! Check it out: www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aShfolR6w8 


Source: http://www.billboard.com/articles/news/6436268/kendrick-lamar-billboard-cover-story-on-new-album-iggy-azalea-police-violence-the-rapture

Broken Flash Drive = Broken Dreams

6 Mar

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“We are all broken and wounded in this world. Some choose to grow strong at the broken places.”
―Harold J. Duarte-Bernhardt

This is how I feel. Broken. For the past few months, I’ve been on this roller coaster of life feeling complete and then broken all of again. It’s one scenario after the next and it’s NEVERending! It all started two weeks ago, when everything was going perfectly.

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I had finally finished my film shoots and could work on editing for the film festival!

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Valentine’s Day (although I was single) went fabulously and had finally passed. Let me tell how obnoxious V-Day is on a college campus…nahhh

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And, new project ideas were filing my head faster than I could speak them into Professor Mac to expand upon later.

It was a Tuesday night. I sat down at an empty table in the midst of my university colleagues (who were watching the Amazing Spiderman–one of my favorite 2012 movies. Shout out to the hot and amazingly talented Andrew Garfield! 😉 I turned on Professor Mac (If you don’t know by now, that’s my Macbook Pro I got for Christmas), opened my writing system, inserted my flash drive, the light glowed….the light went away….Professor Mac was confused and didn’t recognize my flash drive.

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Now, two years ago when this happened to me, I freakin’ panicked!!!!! But this time, I didn’t see it as a big deal. i tried again…and again…and nothing. I honestly didn’t start panicking until now–weeks later–after speaking to some data recovery people and they pitched prices to repair it for me…

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Presently, I’m hoping that a nerd friend of mine will be happy and willing to repair it for half the price I’ve been hearing. I at least want this darn thing to work for two hours so I can get all of my books off of it! That’s all I ask!

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Oh lawd why me! If anyone has any suggestions, that would be fantastic…Idk how this is gonna play out, but hopefully I’ll experience some kind of miracle or gain an insightful moral from this depressing situation. I really don’t wanna type these stories all over again 😦

–Joni Juelissa ❤

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