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Inspiration/Rejection/Jealousy

1 Jul

Confession Time.

It’s 4:48pm on July 1st and my life has changed yet has not at all. I’m anxious from coffee, feeling inspired but am too tired (or is it lethargy?) to write any of my true ideas down. I fee like writing but not what I should. I am fearful of rejection, the future and missing out on opportunities never given in result of my fear.

It’s crazy because you can be so happy for or envious of other people who are on the grind and successful, realize your potential if you would only step out and still not believe your potential and talent can measure up to anything. That’s how I feel. I believe a lot of that has to do with fear.

Over the years, I have dealt with rejection in every aspect of life: as a writer, as a lover, as a friend, etc. Overtime, that rejection builds and it takes self-patience, love and support from others and your acceptance of that love and support to be free of it. Still sometimes, even when you have been set free from the haunting of rejection, it tends to come back, especially when you start to compare yourself to others and belittle yourself for being so behind on your life plans.

When rejection comes to haunt you, don’t let it. When jealousy creeps up on you, congratulate that person. When inspiration hits you, do not let it go.

Let me confess something obvious. I am learning from my own words as I believe every writer does at some point or another.

This post is not only for writers. It is for everyone who creates. Musicians, Dancers, Filmmakers, Photographers, you name it, you do it and keep doing it.

DO. NOT. GIVE. UP.

Do NOT be rocked by fear or past rejection or even by those people chatting, ‘No, you can’t’ because they don’t understand your artistry or don’t like how you look or you in general.

No matter where you stand in life now, wherever you stand later should not be influenced by people who don’t stand for you.

Because at the end of the day, whether you pursue your passions or give up, they won’t like you anyway.

And that’s okay because I will. The people who are cheering for you now and are inspired by you later will. They are who matter.

You can have potential.

You can have talent.

You can have fear.

But you must, most of all, have perseverance.

You story starts with you. Start writing.

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23 Jan

Anyone who has known me for a great amount of time knows my heart for Kendrick Lamar. You know the Grammy-nominated rapping phenomena of a scholar from California that’s walking this very Earth at this very moment.

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Well, folks, the love has thickened. 


Recently (January 8th, 2014) Kendrick Lamar was interviewed by Billboard Magazine. He covered a lot of topics ranging from his Grammy snub to his thoughts in regards to the Michael Brown case to the highly anticipated drop of new album. However, out of the many topics he covered for the magazine, one quote stuck out to me.

“She’s doing her thing,” Lamar tells Billboard. “Let her. People have to go through trials and tribulations to get where they at. Do your thing, continue to rock it, because obviously God wants you here.”

 Now just reading that, you wouldn’t know that he was talking about Iggy Azalea, who many rappers have been giving mixed opinions about. Of course, Kendrick being Kendrick wouldn’t be caught dead saying anything rude to tear anybody down because that’s not what he’s about. He’s about truth and positivity and art.

Just to put it plainly.

 ain't nobody

Now to the meat and potatoes (which sounds so friggin’ good right now). The second I read that quote, I went back and read it again and again. I smiled and I teared up a bit. Because even though he was talking about Iggy Azalea, it applied so much to my current situation. And boy did I need to read it that very second. In the moment, that quote hit me like the words of the great Shakespeare. (You know, if Shakespeare had actually written those darn good plays and wasn’t just a good businessman.)

Even so, that quote is my new favorite of the year thus far. I thought about getting it tattooed inside my upper arm for about an hour. (too long, possibly too painful)

It also reminded me of Psalms 42:5, which crazy enough was the scripture I woke up to in my devotional this morning. Even crazier, this is the first year I’ve read that scripture and didn’t break down because I felt so empty inside and the encouragement felt like water hitting my droughted soul. It was just nice to be reminded. I had never experienced that before and it was so refreshing. I finally feel as though I am finding who I am in God and loving the way He has created me.

Let’s also talk about the fact that Kendrick wasn’t even trying to be cathartic–and reestablish his reign on my favorite person of all time list–but HE TOTALLY DID! The guy is a legend, people.

And God’s timing scares me with its perfection.


–Joni Bing x

P.S. His new single ‘i’ is my current theme song! Check it out: www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aShfolR6w8 


Source: http://www.billboard.com/articles/news/6436268/kendrick-lamar-billboard-cover-story-on-new-album-iggy-azalea-police-violence-the-rapture

I’m Back!!!

6 Mar

HEYYYYYY!

Long time, no blog! I checked over my stats and I’m actually ecstatic! People have been reading even after I haven’t blogged in a little more than a year (I apologize to these people -__-) Anyhoo, welcome back and thanks for reading!

A lot has happened this past year since my last blog. Instead of blogging about it, I’ll show some pictures and caption the story behind it underneath:

It all started with the first picture. I met my roommate. She is amazing–and she’s from LA where I’m moving! Coincidence? I definitely think not! From the moment we started talking to burst any awkward bubbles before our move-in day, I knew we would be an awesome roommate match. She is literally the sister I never had, but always prayed for. In a way, we are so alike yet so different. I think three years from now, we’re gonna rule LA.

 

After about a week into moving in, I met this handsome boy ^_^ (Recently, he got a lip piercing, which I’m still debating about with him). I admit to having the hugest crush ever on him when we first met. Are the flames still there? Wellllll, keep reading my blog and I just may reveal the ending or continuation of that situation.

And then, BOOM! I met the Night Owls. Yeah, everyone in this picture is involved. Who are the Night Owls, you ask? Well, let’s just say I pulled A LOT of all nighters last semester like…almost pretty much every night? The main crew are the ones in the following two pictures.

Ok, explanation time: the picture of the whole crew was taken at Steak n Shake. The one below it was a few hours later at the Cocoa Beach shop. Yes! We drove late at night to Cocoa Beach! It was frantic and dangerous and fun as heck! Of course, being the individual I am, I didn’t rock any shades that night. Plus, I drove so….

It’s been super cold lately! Just this past weekend, it hit the 30s!

I joined a missions trip team a few months ago who is journeying to Luxembourg, the heart of Europe! I’m excited! Maybe that last day in Paris, I’ll find my European husband (or at least shoot a film to bring home!)

Just two weeks ago, I went with one of my best college friends Brittany to see Mat Kearney! As you can see, it was spectacular. And, we got numbers!

Last week, I submitted my first film called The Death Kiss (which I wrote, directed, and produced) into a film festival and they accepted it!!!! (I’ll be posting the movie poster for it later). This weekend, they will be announcing the nominees. Fingers crossed for me?

As you can see, I’ve had quite the school thus far! It’s been a roller coaster of trials, victories, and emotions, but I have gotten through by the grace of God. You were probably wondering how the heck all of these pictures could have made one story and hopefully I’ve done a good job in explaining.

Shout Out to everyone in college right now! Respond back with some awesome stories and brag about your own crew below! Also, follow follow follow!

–Joni Juelissa ❤

Stop In The Name Of…JUST STOP!!!

12 Jan

 

v v v v (Yes, someone did this to a stall at MY school. Ridiculous.) v v v v


  What I can’t seem to comprehend is….why? Why vandalize a bathroom stall to get a “message out” that no one can comprehend. (What up with the math, bro?)


^^ Pretty much how I’m feeling…but then again, I’m not the only one confused out of the 20 something other people I ranted with about this. BTW, we have to sign in and out of class just to go to the bathroom now. B and S!!!

 Seriously, it seems to me the whole point of this crap was to get attention…which she’s not getting because no one knows who she is and if they do….Lucky kid. They turn her in and it’s an easy $200 in their pocket.

Another part of me wonders what this incomprehensible message is trying to convey? Every color has a number…like every individual has individuality?…And every human has a name. Also, speaking of individuality…that’s all I’m getting from it. But I’d LOOOOVVVEEEE to hear from someone about this! What do you think she’s trying to say? I’m literally dying to know…and according to her message, we don’t have much time…

#Joni Juelissa ❤

P.S. One of these days, I’ll post a legit generation cry/rant. Promise.

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